As I have said many times before there comes a time when dealing with the HC BM stops. Now that doesn’t mean she will stop the lies, manipulation, and terror she throws at you but for you it stops. And that comes when you finally sit down, relax and think about why the BM in your life is the way she is. Whether in your car on a long drive, or a window seat watching it rain think about all she has already been through. Think about everything you have been told or have learned.
I’ve personally known my husbands ex-wife since school, and his ex gf for a few years before I got with my husband. For some time me and the ex gf were friends, or at least I thought. But no matter what I thought I still treated her as my friend. Now his ex-wife we were cordial with each other but never truly friends on any level. Even though I knew of her and her life before my husband I was good friends with him far before either of these two had children with him.
So on all accounts I knew about each of these women and their pasts on one level or another. Now once I got with my husband his ex-wife went on her war path and hasn’t stopped since. Over the years of pain and torture she put on my family I never truly gave much thought to what I knew of her. I just seen the ex HC BM as far as I was concerned. She didn’t help my perception of her either with the phone call of “We were working it out to he’s abusive!” Straight into getting me fired, threats and all kinds of HC fun many of you can relate to.
But over the last few years I have come to see her differently. Don’t get me wrong ask me face to face and I think she needs SERIOUS therapy and a vacation on a very white floor with a padded room. But I washed my hands of her drama long ago because I seen HER! I seen past her outward shell she shows the world. I seen the person she hides when strangers are looking.
I seen the anger, pain and confusion. See I had to sit down and look at my life vrs hers while with my husband. No matter that she has children with him and should be happy that she does I have far more than she ever got in her eyes. Now yes she holds those children against him, lies on him to keep them away and even manipulated and lied on his eldest who she so graciously claims she misses dearly all while claiming in court this small child is the devil.
But for the short few years she got with him, he was not the greatest with her. Now I don’t condone any negative behavior from a husband or wife but I surely can sit back and see why he wished to never be near her. They were oil and water. I give him props for marrying her after they had a child, not to many men would even go that far. And despite her own mother questioning him on if he was sure he wanted to marry her own daughter I give him mad props.
But no matter how much they never got along he did what he had to for his children with her. And after a few rocky roads tried time and time again to make it work. In the end obviously that didn’t happen. Leading him to being alone wanting nothing more than his kids. He did date another girl before me and after conversations with her his ex-wife made her life a living hell as well. Then I come next.
If already his ex wasn’t jaded over him treating the first woman after her better than her I step in and get treated far far better than any before me. Again I remind everyone we were dear friends long before her. Life just took us in different directions back then. So meeting up for the first time in years it was if nothing ever changed between us. Instantly we connected, we traded vehicles. I did this because I had a town car and no need for the space while he had a truck and four kids to drive around. Im sure the very second she seen this she knew deeply that I was not just some next girl type woman. Though she called me that. I do believe I even got told I was Miss Today but not Tomorrow in so many words.
I thought back on this and realized that was the start of her pain, anger and confusion. Shortly after that we found a place together. Then once they were completely and 100% legally divorced we married. Again I remind you I have known this man since he was 19 hes now 32. But in her eyes I was the enemy getting all she was promised or thought she was entitled to when she married him. Year after year together through our ups and downs I got the big house, the new cars, the life she didn’t get. Yet she had the power and knew it because she was willing to do whatever she needed to to remove me or those kids from his life.
So now here I sit 6 years together, and over 5 years married. Still go the doting husband, who stays home to just be with me and his daughter. The man willing to die if it was what kept us happy. Yes we have our issues what married couple doesn’t. But I wake up with little notes saying I love you! Special little gifts here and there and the constant reminder that no matter what he is still here for me. Something she never got.
I have thought about this many times than I care to admit. No matter what her and her friends have said about me, tried to do to me, or any of her antics, I forgive her. Many think I am crazy for this but I see her. I see that she when no one is looking is watching my every mood secretly waiting for my end. Coming up with a new lie to try and push him over the edge and end our marriage. I am NOT saying she wants him back but more that she wants what I have to end because she still cant grasp why I got it all and she didn’t. Even though again she holds his children from him and has that part of him I don’t.
And when court is over and things change again not to her liking we will continue this song and dance she continues to play. Because I have something she won’t ever have. And no I am not talking about the husband, house and all that, I have heart, forgiveness and understanding. I too felt like she did when I found out my ex-husband married the girl before me. Granted I hated him with a passion like no other I was confused as why their marriage would work? Why would he actually keep a job and go home to her when he didn’t do any of that with me. But after time I realized that the anger I felt was misplaced. Completely unnecessary! I too was with someone else at the time, not married (thank god) but I was ok.
I spent 7 yrs with my ex and I was more angry with myself for giving up so much of my life to a man who cheated, lied and hurt me. When I came to that realization I was no longer confused or mad. I took some time to see the reality of it but I did. Something again I have that she don’t. I know she has dated, had her flings but she wont have true love and happiness until she realizes the same as I did. And until she does this HC Drama will never end. She will forever have a need to be on a warpath to destroy everything he and I have.
But for me I get to live truly and happily live. Do we miss the other kids…YES. Do we feel incomplete….YES! But we have to keep living. Keep trying. And most of all keep forgiving her for being the person she feels she HAS to be. In return I get it. I don’t need to play into her drama or get all worked up. I see her……