JASP2 #9

Step Mothers Confession

Dear Mother of my step child,

You dont know me, you only know what fear has led you to believe. You have only allowed fear to dictate how you behave and react. I am here to tell you that I too have fears. Fears beyond any I ever thought I would have. See I feared that the man I feel in love with would never truly commit to me because of fear that you and your children wouldnt like ME. I feared daily that due to the constant calls, texts and emails from you that I would wake up one day and he would be gone. I feared that when the children first met me they would hate me instantly. I feared that after we told them about getting married my dreams of a perfect wedding would be over. I feared when we moved into together the children wouldnt like what I did for them in their rooms despite the hours of hard work I put in. I feared that with every pick up that they would come home screaming they hated me. I feared the fights over how I cook vrs you. I feared how I cleaned vrs you. I still fear the day each one grows up and starts falling in love, will they come to me. I fear the day one says they are getting married and I wont be allowed because of you. I fear many things but im not afraid to still try and be a good parent to my husband and your children. I will not be afraid of how much hate you project my way. I will not be afraid to BE ME!

Step Mom